I realized recently that my blog is pretty lame. I am a blogger who never blogs who has a blog that is never blogged on. Does that sound as pathetic to you as it does to me?
Well there are various reasons for my lack of bloggage, but it really comes down to the fact that I have way too many commitments to fulfill in the amount of time I have been given. In the past month (maybe longer...) I have let down my friends and my blog followers with a gross lack of communication on my part. The unanswered calls, messages, and the lack of bloggage for 6 weeks straight tell all. I am truly sorry. I don't know how people do it. I honestly don't.
I now find myself having to choose every day between whether to get a decent amount of sleep or to actually see my friends and engage myself, once again, in society. A couple years ago I would have been all for society. I could go on little to no sleep and not embarrass myself as a walking zombie among living, normal, non-sleep deprived humans. As a student you are supposed to hold strange hours. I remember it being normal to go to bed at four in the morning and wake up at 11. It was exciting then, living in the dead hours, while everyone else slept and dreamed and missed the night.
But once reality hit (meaning graduation), I entered the world of full-time, American wage earners. This world is defined by many things, among which include, but are not limited to:
1. Dreary, long days, hours, minutes, seconds....I'm not counting I swear!
2. The lack of sleep- see zombie comment above. Less sleep for workers does not equal more time for play, but more time for work. FUN.
3. The lack of definitive self outside of the worker self- when you spend the majority of your time at your job, as most workers do, your job starts defining you (instead of the other way around). Most of us will spend twice as much time with our coworkers as we spend with our spouses, children's, family, and friends.
4. The lack of time- when you work all day and sleep all night, the hours that are left in between the two can be anywhere from zero (yes that is right!) to 6 hours. (6 hours seems like a lot, but after making dinner, running various errands, etc we'll both see how much is left, and then compare notes. :-))
5. The loss of personal relationships-I could rant about this one forever. What happened to all that time I used to have devoted to maintaining my relationships with those around me? Now I have to pencil you in, and schedule a time for us to do that. It's sad really. I have to micro-manage my recreational time.
The list could go on. I don't want to bore you. So I won't.
I'll just end with a thought.
I want to share something with you: The three little sentences that will get you through life. Number 1: Cover for me. Number 2: Oh, good idea, Boss! Number 3: It was like that when I got here.- Homer Simpson